I try and try and try to lose weight, but it never seems to happen. I will start dieting and do really well but then something happens. I’ll get into a fight with my husband, or something sad or stressful will happen, or there will be something to celebrate, anything really and I give in to temptation. I start eating and don’t stop and I can’t seem to get back on track. I want so badly to lose this weight. And I dont want to lose it for anyone but me. My husband loves me the way I am, he’s always telling me that I ddon’e need to lose any weight. But I do, I need to lose it. I am so unhappy in my own body. I’m depressed and don’t want to do the things I used to love. I look in the mirror and I see this huge lump of fat and I just want to crawl in bed and sleep until I wake from this nightmare. I want to wake up to the skinny girl that I want to be comforting me and telling me that its okay, that the fat girl was just a dream. I don’t know what to do, how can I stop this fat girl from making me so unhappy? How can I beat my addiction to food so that I can finally be free to be happy? I just want to lose this fat and I’m willing to do anything to do it, but I can’t stop sabotaging my attempts to become who I want to be. I want to be able to play with my kids, to take them out and play soccer (their favorite sport) with them, and not always be on the sidelines watching because I’m too fat to join them because I get too winded to run more than a few steps. If anyone has any advice, I would love to hear it. Any dieting tips, or motivation, or whatever, anything that might help me beat this. People are always saying how sad it is when someone gets cancer, and I agree it is sad and I wish that someone would find a cure. But what people dont realize, is that obesity is a horrible disease too. They look at us and say look at that fat girl, or why doesn’t she get off her butt and do something about it, or the cow needs to put down the food. But it’s not that easy, this is a disease, an addiction, and we try to do something about it. No one wants to be the fat girl. We don’t do this to ourselves on purpose. We too need a ribbon, some magic cure to stop obesity. We need help, this is not something we can do on our own. Sorry for going off like that, but its how I feel, and I need the help and support of anyone willing to give it, and I’m here to lend support to others. Thanks for taking the time to read this and feel free to add me.
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